Who am I?

Today is just one of those days. I am feeling so down. Like I am worth nothing. I don't necessarily know why...wait, yes I do. I feel like I am just not smart enough for these anatomy classes. I feel sad because of the whole baby daddy situation. I feel like he is just throwing Leo away. How can I still think about his man. Deep down and I mean DEEP down in my heart part of me still fantasizes about having that perfect little family. But that is not who he really is. I feel like I need a break from school? But do I really? I don't know I feel so flip floppy about everything on these days. I want to runaway and hide. I want to climb to the highest mountain and scream. I fantasize also about how my life will be once I finish college and get my degree, who will I be with? Will I be happy? Will I still be alone? BUT most importantly will Leo be happy? I want to fast foward to this day, but I know I would miss so many important things. I always feel guilty when I go out for a night. It's like I can never just fully enjoy a night out with my friends. There is always this nagging guilt in my stomach. I feel exhausted. I feel like all my smartness has been drained from me. I wish I had a stronger back bone. On top of all of this I am broke. So broke. I have almost maxed out all of my credit cards...I've had to pay daycare with them for the past couple months. I get no help from baby daddy.

I know I am not the only one struggling. I know there are thousands of peole out there in the same situation. I know I can't stop. I know what I want and I will get it (with time). I know I can do this.

I know who I am.